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Post by causper on Sept 21, 2014 16:54:17 GMT
The school had a duck pond. That simple fact made Causper love the ranch instantly. It was where she currently was, the ranch, taking pictures of the ducks swimming. She used almost half the roll of film by the time ten minutes had passed, all on the ducks and their environment. This was her favorite place on campus, no argument. I wonder... if I'm allowed to feed them? I'll have to ask when I see someone working... Causper lay on her stomach facing the duck pond, chin resting on her hands as she watched the ducks paddle through the water.
"Wish I could be a duck. Probably have it alot easier. No doctors to fuss over your condition, no conditions to HAVE really. Hunters would be a problem if you were wild, but you guys are pretty tame aren't you?"
Causper giggled almost inaudibly as a duck took off into the air, splashing her as it did. She smiled and stretched out before resuming her previous position, this time with her head resting on her arms with eyes closed. The sunlight felt warm on her back and she smiled, a faint almost imperceptible smile. She never thought of if a person was nearby or approaching, which meant there was a large chance she'd regret coming to the pond at all.
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Post by Deleted on Sept 23, 2014 1:42:26 GMT
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Post by causper on Sept 23, 2014 2:10:44 GMT
Causper didn't hear the girl's approach until she started shouting, but she reacted quickly. She rolled to the side and up to her feet, grimacing as she twisted her ankle but ignoring the mild pain. Shattered bones tended to dull your nervous system with their damage. Her smile was gone, as well as all signs of relaxation, instead she was tense and almost defensive in her stance. Cautiously, Causper looked over the new arrival as if assessing the threat level before turning away and sitting down. dog people... this school really is large isn't it.... hope she doesn't bite. The white-furred tail and ears were quite interesting, but not enough to focus attention on. She didn't want to talk to anyone, get to know them. They'd die if she loved them. Cared for them. They all did, generally before her. By some means that couldn't be prevented.
"Yes, I am a new student here. My name is Causper Verte, it's a pleasure to meet you I am sure."
Causper's voice was flat and emotionless, making it relatively obvious it wasn't a pleasure and she didn't want to be here. Bad things happened where she went. This person should leave. Now. It wasn't safe near her. Physically or otherwise. Someone would get hurt.
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Post by Deleted on Oct 13, 2014 11:29:46 GMT
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Post by causper on Dec 1, 2014 2:42:15 GMT
Causper stifled as shriek as the dog eared girl jumped forward and hugged her, those white fluffy, soft ears rubbing against her. The feeling of Yuki's warm hug was a sensation that Causper had almost forgotten. It took all of her will force to not to return the hug and she regretted it as the small girl pulled away. It had been years since she had felt such a warm hug. It almost made her cry, thinking about that, so she turned away and regained control over her emotions. If she gave in that easily when someone hugged her then there was going to be many more casualties then she thought there would be. She couldn't allow herself to let down her guard so easily like that.
"I like being alone. It lets me think things through properly. And I don't have any need for 'friends' either. It is a meaningless word, friends, you could just as easily say the same thing by saying 'people I don't hate' or 'people that i get along with'. There's really no point to giving a title to a temporary relationship. Like all else, it always ends. In my case it tends to end with death."
Causper wasn't lying about any of that. She really believed in what she said to be true. Friendship was meaningless. So was love and hate. Nothing lasted long enough to matter. If it did, Causper doubted she would still be in the state she was in. Things wouldn't die unexpectedly. If things lasted longer... So would suffering and anguish and pain. It was a good thing life was short. A long life would be a painful one.
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Post by Deleted on Dec 4, 2014 2:56:18 GMT
"I like being alone." That made Yuki pull face.
"It lets me think things through properly. And I don't have any need for 'friends' either." That made her ears droop a bit.
"It is a meaningless word, friends, you could just as easily say the same thing by saying 'people I don't hate' or 'people that i get along with'. There's really no point to giving a title to a temporary relationship. Like all else, it always ends. In my case it tends to end with death."
"You... Are a person... People do die, it is part of life. I know that it is, I have lost, a great, many friends and family members. To the hands of others. My brother was killed right in front of me... To not make friends... Simply because people die, that is no way to live, life is not about the end of it, it is about how you live. You are weak if you cannot enjoy life for the good in it." She stated and nodded to herself after rambling a little bit.
"If you don't try to enjoy life... You're not really living any more... I don't think people who are dead that knew you would want you to be upset and to not make friends ever again. Besides. I'm hard to kill." She grinned, her ears perking up, hands on her hips and her eyes closed. That tail of hers swishing from side to side behind her in pride. She was proud of the fact that she was difficult to kill.
Still the wolf girl didn't give up. She was determined to make a new friend.
"Yuki thinks master Riku could maybe help Lady Causper with enjoying life. He would be her friend too Yuki thinks." A vigorous nod of the head and Yuki was content for the most part. |
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Post by causper on Dec 4, 2014 12:40:43 GMT
You are weak if you cannot enjoy life for the good in it.
That was something Causper knew all too well. She knew she wouldn't get stronger while she was miserable but she was never and would never be strong at all. She was a weak, pathetic, miserable little thing that no one could be bothered with. It's what she had been for years. She had grown used to it.
"People have died because they loved me... I don't want to hurt anyone else... It would be safer if you just left. I may be a person but don't want to be a killer either."
It pained her to say that. It hurt to tell people to leave. She had to though. If she didn't they might become attached to her and then they would die like everyone else. That risk... Causper didn't want anyone taking it.
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Post by Deleted on Dec 10, 2014 2:14:10 GMT
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